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songs, dazedand confused, cole hauser, might, jacob vargas, interpretations, rock, personal essay, randy harrison, amaru. tewpac, non fiction, photos, tupac change lyric, david steinberg, makaveli video, shakur, peter sarsgaard,
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Now, with my road-dog sister moving out to get married and my mom dating a 32 gear year-old (the first guy since my father passed away, and the same age as my last boyfriend), I guess you could say I’m entering a new phase in life. And of course gear with all this change, I am experiencing that same disconnect with myself. Cocktailing at Zanzibar, a hip, eclectic club in Santa Monica, I had one such moment. Escaping from the crowd, I went to the gear bathroom to catch my breath. As I washed my hands, I stared at my reflection. It was one of those mirrors that reflected all angles and I caught a glimpse of my profile as I wiped my hands. In that moment, I stared with the cold objectivity of a passing stranger. Looking at Lara, I felt amused. She stood, so waitressy with her upright posture and her ponytail swinging. Staring without my usual critical scrutiny, I found her to be prettier than I think of myself and younger looking than I feel.
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