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It just goes to show how bad my gambling addiction really is. And the $8,500 that random I could have cashed out, random could have paid my house payment for almost a year. It could have supported me for several months, and offered me the luxury of random not having to rush to find a new job so that I could pay my bills. I seriosuly kind of felt like dying afteward. It was like my spirit was broken. I mean that I literally sat in my room and just wanted to give up; I literally felt like my body might give out and just die. The disappointment and frustration was overwhelming. I don't value or respect money as much as most people; I just generally look at it as a means to feed my addiction. Also, I am very generous with money, and extremely careless with how I spend it. But right now, at this time in my life - after just losing my job, bills being due, and being literally completely broke - that $8,500 could have helped me change my life.
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